when the journey's over, and all my dreams come true, i dream of you

FINALS - OUR TRIUMPH, OUR GAME
23 march(tomorrow!), delta, 3pm.

oh please. i'm so damn excited for tomorrow; it's our finals. thinking of all the wonderful things that will happen tomorrow made me so excited. i really really can't wait for tomorrow. i think i'll just be very excited throughout the whole day in school tomorrow till we're released.

anyway, ms marten's such a dear. she took all the extra effort to take photos of us(the team) and compiled them into a video with a short summary/story of all the things we've gone through since the start of this b'div tournament. the video is entitled, 'a daring adventure'; the story of a team of ordinary kids. the video's so nice and sweet. she even printed the pages of the video out and binded them into booklets for us. and i'm sure that we all love it so damn much, yes?

looking at the video, reading through the contents of the story and thinking of all the things we've gone through in this short journey, can really bring laughter and tears to me. i mean, unless you went through this whole journey, you'll never be able to understand how wonderful this whole journey really is. i call it, beautiful and painful.

team,
it'd been a pretty damn amazing journey with all of you. and i know that we're the most special and bravest bunch of girls. we reached the finals after so many setbacks. coach left us halfway through, we had to shoulder all the critics from the world and play without a coach. so what if others think that we don't deserve to reach this far, and it's luck that brought us this far? they might even call us the underdogs, but so? i know we trained and worked so terribly hard and against all odds, we conquered fear, kept each other's hope alive, believed in each other and our dreams, and we made it through with the greatest courage we all have. we deserve every bit of being in the finals. i'm sure coach's so damn proud of us and he'll be there for us tomorrow. regardless of the result of tomorrow's finals, i know that we're already champions in each and every of our own heart, to have reached this far, aren't we? i'm so proud to be in such a wonderful team. tomorrow's the last game for b'div 05 and also the final phrase our whole journey. let's work hard like we've never before and make tommorrow the best day of all. it'll be our day and our year tomorrow. we'll do the school, coach, ms martens, and ourselves proud. b'div 05, you're the best thing that ever happened to me. i love :)

FLY LIKE A BUTTERFLY, STING LIKE A BEE.
THE SKY'S THE LIMIT, WE'LL CHASE OUR DREAM.

IVE MOVED (:

i suddenly feel like blogging abt whats currently happening in my life. okay.

sigh. all i can say now is; im tired. ive been really really tired and drained these few weeks. i mean, ive always been tired, but i think im going through some difficult phrase of life. everything seem so vague and im unsure of whats happening now, and even the future.

and those frends tht i thought i can trust, and whn i needed so much, they wasnt there whn i really needed them the most. some were even backstabbing me and everything. now i know who are those who really care, not just those who get close to me, and whn they got enough of what they want, they just do horrible things tht really hurt. sigh.

but i think at least there were some who really cared. yes i know. i know who are those who really care and were always there whn i need someone. you know who you are too la. not need to brag a long story abt tht. thks for being there, listening to my whinings and going through all these bad times with me. thks a bunch =)

actually, i think im grateful for everyone tht were there. i mean, going through bad times is something tht everyone goes through. and only then, it'll make us more mature and stronger. ive learnt alot through all these. and im not exactly happy tht its happeing, but im at least grateful.

i believe tht, there's God's will and plan in everything tht happened, be it good or even bad. God's timing will never be too early nor late, his clock always strikes on time. there's a reason why everything tht happened. wait for God's timing, and you'll see the beauty of it.

`in everything, give thanks.

i just baked chocolate brownies. they're nice. if you want some, pls come over. haha.

im in a really good mood just now. i think i would most probably do anything yout want me to do for you just now, but not now anymore. granny is over for the weekends, and she's giving my her black face and throwing temper on me, accusing me of lying to everyone, the moment i just stepped home. sigh.

school was good today, or maybe not. i think i screwed the geog paper. who who cares. im happy, cause i pass my maths. you might find me crazy, but im not. cause i dont always pass my maths. i fail them terribly most of time. its not tht great, but at least i pass this time. so glad tht i finally pass. finally!

its not tht im happy because i won the bet i had my tuition teacher. im not so material i guess. haha. anw, he gotta give me fifty bucks for passing. then i can buy the new bag i want. lols.

granny is over, cause mummy and daddy is away in kl, to attend some stupid seminar. why must they go all the way there. cant they hold the seminar in spore. so irritating.

i think im starting to pms. ive been having moodswings and i feel so tired in school. im getting so tired and confused over so many things, sometimes, i just hope tht i could sleep forever. i dont want to wake up and see this gone world.

growing up these days have been really crazy and tough. so much for my girlhood ;

anw, mark is really crazy. he promised tht he'll eat a TWOlitre tub of ice cream later, so tht he'll put on weight, since he's so thin. haha. this is so funny and amusing! =)

dreamalittledreamofme`

oh. my maths tuition just ended. but i still have got some stupid and shit english assignment to be completed before i can go to sleep tonight. im starting to hate, okay maybe i shldnt use tht word, im starting to dislike ms yew more and more. she used to be the nicest english teacher, with the most gentle and softest voice, and the best temper a teacher would normally have, and the best thing, she doesnt care abt late work. but she just changed completely. she began to be so noisy, irritating, and bossy. i dont know why, but she just did.

she scream and scolds us, over little things, the slightest little things, like being noisy, but its like which class isnt noisy? she scolds us like we owe her a life or smth. its so annoying. and she cant for gosh teach for nuts la. her lessons are so boring, tht they'll bore you to sleep, and you might be so bored, you pass away during sleeping. and so, we try adding up some laughter and spice to her lessons, to make everyone laugh, but she scolds us for tht too. and she act like she's such a good teacher, so fierce and great whn mrs kong steps into the class, whn she saw half the class standing cause of late assignments. finefine :(

sighs. maybe i shldnt have said all tht, but she's really getting on our nerves. she doesnt like us. yes i know, but tht doesnt mean tht we like her. in fact, i would say, we dont. we've somewhat lost the respect tht we used to have for her in the past. but i somewhat missed the old days, whn she was so nice tht she sing while strumming the guitar for us during lesson time.

arh well. forget abt tht. anw, i just hope i can pass my maths exam tmr. haha. i think i can pass, i hope. tuition teacher just promised tht he'll give me fifty bucks if i can pass* tmr's paper. he thinks tht i cant, but ohwell, i think i can. okay, he'll give me fifty bucks if i pass, but if i fail, then i'll have to do it vice versa too, tht means give him fifty bucks. haha. the bet is on. i think i'll do okay. no worries.

at least there's smth for me to look forward to, cause i really dread doing any maths tests. i mostly flung them, but, im somewhat confident tht i'll pass tmr's paper. haha. i better not be too confident =)

so there. i better start doing my english assignment now and i need my coffee now! study hard girlos, we'll do it aye. restwell. loves!

feelme, touchme, healme ;

sighs. sometimes i cant help feeling tht life is so unfair. perhaps it happens only to me. you can say tht im speaking frm my side of feelings and thoughts, but i still think tht life is so unfair.

now, i'll tell you my sad story. and i just hope tht you'll at least agree with me. its like this.

ive got a granny who started taking care of me since i was born. ive always asked myself this question. if you would ask me who im closest to, i wouldnt say mummy or daddy. it'll always be granny, for all the care, concern and love tht she showered upon me through this fourteen years, can never be repaid to her. ive always known tht, and ive always cherished my old little granny. i really love this granny, who took care on my whole life, till now.

i know she loves me too, as much as i love her. yes, i know she does. but there has always been a small little problem between us. i dont know how to explain it, but i know there's a problem somewhere. its smth hidden.

then ystd, was supposed to be a happy day. cousins and everyone came. and i did smth wrong in the morning. i know i did smth really bad tht made granny angry, but part of it wasnt my fault. i tried to explain it to her, but she started saying tht i was giving her excuses. and she was so angry, tht she said, i shld stop calling her granny. and she black-faced me throughout the whole of ystd, whn she was talking so happily with brother, sista and all my other cousins.

and whn i saw and heard tht, i was so sad. how could she say and do this to me? whn brother and sista does smth wrong, she'll just cover up for them so tht daddy wounldnt find out, or she would just give them a small lecture. im not trying to be jealous, or feel bias of what she does to my siblings then to me. i know im not, but how could she actually say this to me?

i was so sad for the whole of ystd, but i kept everything to myself. and i was hoping tht she would be okay this morning. but whn i woke up, she gave me a black face, and banged the stupid plate in front of my face, and she went off to offer brother and sista breakfast smiling and laughing, leaving me there feeling like a idiot. dammit.

it sucks whn its coming frm someone whom i love and respect the most. and its being too unfair to me. dont you think so? i just feel really bad and sad. but actually, i dont hold it upon her. maybe granny is getting old, thts why she's doing this to me. well, at least i hope so. but im going out to somewhere, i dont know where to study. i cant stay at home, see her black face, and throwing temper now, and study.

but i dont have anywhere to go now. brenda and the rest are staying at home to study, and i wouldnt want to disturb them, by going to their hse or asking them out. im so lost now.

if uve somewhat, read this, pls drop me a msg or give me a ring alright. im still thinging of where i shld go, but i shal ljust go and bath now. so there.

takecare. study hard for the ca exams. loves!

iguessineedyoubaby`